Almost midnight

Yes even though tomorrow is a work day I'm still up, on the internet and watching TV. I'm not even tired.

I will regret this decision in the morning. But for now, eh, I've had worse days.

Happy Hump Day! OH!! Actually it's a short week, I'm not used to keeping track of those yet.

Good day

It was a good day for being my 36th year on this Earth...

We went to the Saturday market and ate a hot dog...

I bought me some flowers and then E made me a dinner of steak and red potatoes...

Then just hung out and enjoyed the day. I hope this next year is a good year. OR at least I can hope that I'm strong enough to put up with what is coming my way.

Reading

So instead of using any spare time to share how work is going or how I've been trying to keep up with laundry and dishes as much as I can, I have been reading this book.

All the girls at work (well, three out of the four of them) are reading this. The first week I worked that's all they talked about. They'd ask each other questions and share how they felt about this part or that one. Finally Friday night I was board out of my mind and decided to just by the book and see if it was as good as they made it out to be.

It is so much better than I thought it would be. It has a pretty good story line and it's an easy read; so easy that I can put it down, do a load of laundry or cook some food for a couple of hungry guys and then pick it right up and keep going.

It's surprised me how into it I am. I'm not usually into sappy love stories and I'm certainly not into vampire novels so to sink right into it took me back.

A couple of things though: (I don't want to spoil anything for anyone so if you want to read this be warned) I don't understand why it wouldn't matter to Bell@ that Edw@rd is a vampire. Really? It doesn't concern you that he could gorge your throat out and crush you to bits? Or that you'd get older and older and he'd continue to look 17 years old forever? I don't think that would go over so well when you reach your 50's. HOWEVER, the way he only has eyes for her and the way he just wants to love her and all the romantic things he says, well, he could gorge my throat out if he wanted to, too.

I hope everyone is doing wonderful and I hope to catch up soon! Goodnight!

Can allergies kill you?

I was a fool to think that because I didn't have allergies in April or May they would never come and I was mysteriously cured. Ha, they're back and they are killing me! This year I solemnly swear to take my A11egra every 12 hours no matter how I feel.

Work went pretty well yesterday. I have covered enough times that that's exactly how it felt. I left yesterday thinking "Holy crap! I've got to come back tomorrow and next week and next month and possibly next year! What have I done?" But it's a pretty good place to work. Today is my x-ray day, hopefully I'm not slammed.

I stupidly cut some bangs into my hair. Lets just say that it's a really bad idea to cut bangs into your hair when you are hurriedly trying to get ready for you first day of work. I just have to remember that they'll grow out! :p

I hope everyone has an awesome Tuesday!!

Weekend!

He he, I'm home today! D keeps asking me when I'm going to work, he's not used to both me and Eric being here.

So far it's been a good and kind of relaxed day. My dad and step-mom are going to come by and give D has birthday gift and I need to go pick up some cake and ice cream.

Oops, they're here!

:)

Some days are easier then others

Today was a really bad day.

Some days I can take what's happening with my marriage and be at peace that we are doing the right thing, we are getting out of a bad situation and we will work hard at being somewhat friendly and share D and it will all be ok.

Other days, like today, are way too hard to handle. I see what's happening and I'm devastated by it all. Just heart broken and well, broken. All I did today was bawl my eyes out. It didn't help that E was in a bit of a mood yesterday and I took it really hard. Sometimes I feel like I really tried to be a good wife and now it's all backfiring in my face. Ack, I don't know!!

Tomorrow should be a really fun day. We are going to meet one of my very best friends (Hi Megan!) and her kids at the Port Land's Child rens Mu seum. They are having a Bob the Buil der exhibit and by the looks of the website they have a TON of totally fun stuff to do. I've never been and I'm sure D will love it. Also it will be fun for me to catch up with my friend and watch the kids play. I'm so excited!

Off to finish some laundry and then to bed, early I hope.

Good night!

Last week of freedom

This is my last week before I go back to work full time. I'm sad and happy a the same time. I'm glad to be out in the working world, off of weekends, but I'm terrified at the thought of getting up at 5 in the morning. I am soooo not a morning person. I keep telling myself it will be ok, I can turn into a morning person, right?

Just like a little gift from Heaven my mom is house sitting for her pastor this week. So we get a little break and just be our little family of three. She's applied for an apartment in the town were she works and is hoping to find out if she gets it while she's gone. That would mean that she would come back only to pack her stuff up and move into her own place. Which would be great but I worry she's in over her head. She only wants to live in a two bedroom and is not budging from that. I highly doubt she makes enough to qualify but anything could happen. So I'm just crossing my fingers and hoping for the best for all of us.

Please send kind and happy vibes my way please!

On the cleaning/organizing front: I just purged and threw away a huge cabinet full of bottles, nipples and sippy cups, well most of them. I kept 2 bottles with screw on lids because they are perfect for transporting milk for cereal or oatmeal and I kept two sippy type cups (essentially plastic cups with plastic lids) because they are perfect for when D is drinking somewhere I don't want an accident (like when he watches a movie on my bed), but everything else went into the trash or recycling. I figured since he turned 5 on Friday it was time to let go. It feels good to get some of that clutter OUT!

Side note: Can you believe my baby turned FIVE!!! He's half way to 10 and a third of the way to 15! That's almost driving! Yikes!

There's many more cabinets to clean out, I think I saw an old breast pump in one of them. I'm such a pack rat! :)

Happy Monday!